Friday, May 30, 2003

I've been doing a lot of blog reading lately and I began thinking about how great it is that there are dozens of people writing about similiar issues, but their conclusions can be completely different. I know that to a certain extent that is the point of blogs and to a lesser extent the point of the internet. However, just being able to actually see it being applied is fantastic. Anyway...I have a lot to say but it is late...I will continue later.

Friday, May 23, 2003

"Is it fair that Pluto has to wear a leash and sleep in a doghouse while Goofy, who is also a dog, gets to drive around in a car and play golf with Mickey?" - Louis Stevens Even Stevens

One of life's most confusing questions.

For fellow fans who like to remember the "good ole' days" of Pete and Pete here is a great website to visit The Adventures of Pete and Pete

Sunday, May 18, 2003

I am now only a few days away from my 23rd birthday. I always thought that 21 was far away when I was in High School. I don't think I ever thought about being 23. It is a little worriesome that I am only eligible to be on MTV's The Real World for another year (not that I would ever be on it...see I have a theory...nevermind). Anyway... I know I am not "old". I would never say that. But, I am in a wierd place. Somewhere between childhood and adulthood. I've graduated from College...and worked a year...but I am not really any closer to my career than I was 5 years ago. It is nothing to be saddened about, but it is just an observation I've been dwelling on for a while. I do not consider myself an adult just yet. I am not wholly financially independent, I still watch cartoon's and "kid tv shows" (if you have never seen any of the following, I would highly suggest watching them: Rocket Power and Wild Thornberrys on NICK and Even Stevens on the Disney Channel), I read the Harry Potter Books and I still dream of being in an episode of the "classic" Nick show "The Adventures of Pete and Pete". On the other hand I have bills to pay, I have a job to be responsible for, I have a serious relationship to maintain, and I enjoy a good beer and a nice cigar every so often. Maybe it is a good thing that I don't see myself as an adult just yet.

Maybe I should stop rambling on.

Sunday, May 11, 2003

As I sat somewhere between Hesperus and Mancos Colorado overlooking the breathtaking La Plata's and the green trees and the greener valleys where cattle are grazing, I sat and thought. I thought about life. I thought about God. I thought about the future and the past. While looking out into the wide open space I know that there is a God. I know that He cares about what goes on in this world. However, at the same time I feel that I need Him right now. My life is getting ready to change drastically and I know that He can help get me through. Because I know that He will be the one that will be right beside me through the changes. I do not have to worry about that, but I am still scared. I do not want to leave the things that I have known for the last five years. I do not want to leave my friends, even though some of them are leaving. I do not want to leave behind my g/f who needs to leave this town almost as much as I do. I cannot stop change. I cannot deny change. And knowing that I will always have God with me makes it easier, makes it bearable. I know it could be much worse. What will happen will happen. I can fight it, or I can have faith and go with God through it.

(Faith may not be something that I can openly talk about. However, I feel a lot better writing it here. Yeah, its personal, but I believe that I am not the only one that struggles with faith. It's always comforting to know that we are not alone)

Thursday, May 08, 2003

Is wanting to have children in this day and age selfish? This was an accusation made by a classmate in a class that Jenn is taking. I guess I do not really understand what is selfish about it. Yes, it could be called selfish to want to give children what my parents gave me. But it is equally selfish to want to live a life without roots, responsibilities and cares. Anyway...

Tuesday, May 06, 2003

A little background on the following text: I graduated from college a little over a year ago. I stayed in the town I went to college in so I could "regain my focus" and so I could be around my girlfriend and my friends (all my good friends from the school were either still in school or working at the school). This past weekend many of these friends graduated from this college. Many of them are leaving, and I may be leaving too. After feeling a slight sense of dread for this change I wrote the following words.

I am saddened by the change. The realization that I can never go back; the dread and fear of loss, the fear of rejection, the fear of pain. And overall the intense pang of regret. I wish I could stop time - I wish I could slow time - I wish I could go back, just for a while. I know I need to move on. I know we all need to move on. We all cannot go together - I wish we could. But life cannot be the same - never changing, standing still - but sometimes I wish it would, If only for a moment.

Thursday, May 01, 2003

"Courage, then, my countrymen; our contest is not only whether we ourselves shall be free, but whether there shall be left to mankind an asylum on earth for civil and religious liberty". -Samuel Adams On American Independence

I love America, I would not want to live anywhere else, I consider myself very patriotic, but I believe that being a true patriot is questioning the actions of our government. It is a government for the people and by the people. I think this whole ordeal with the Dixie Chicks is being blown completely out of proportion. I am not a Dixie Chicks fan; although due to my girlfriend being a fan I do listen to them on occasion. But anyway, I do not know why it is so "wrong" to criticize our President right now. As Americans we do have the right to free speech, the First Amendment to our Constitution does say, "Congress shall make no law abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press;" Yes, the Dixie Chicks were not in the U.S. at the time, but that is not the point. The fact that they are being ostracized over what they said, that is down right obscene. I had the same feelings when fellow country music artist Toby Keith was getting slammed for his song "Courtesy of the Red, White and Blue (Angry American)". We can have sex on TV, the exploitation of women in magazines and music, and hateful words said by our country's leaders about sexual orientation, yet we cannot question the actions of our government, you know, the one that WE VOTED FOR and the one that WE PAY TAXES TO. We have the right to tell the Dixie Chicks, or anyone for that matter that we disagree. But when it comes to threatening those people, or their families that is when we need to realize what is truly important.

Meaningful quote for the day
Re-crucifying Christ
Johann Christoph Arnold

Refusing to forgive is tantamount to re-crucifying
Christ. Instead of seeing stones rolled away,
we throw stones at each other. What so many
people today fail to realize is that forgiveness is
a door to peace and happiness. Forgiving is
not ignoring wrongdoing, but overcoming the
evil inside us and in our world with love. To
forgive is not just a command of Christ but the
key to reconciling all that is broken in our lives
and relationships.