My heart continually aches for peace. Whether this peace is personal or for the world around me, I am never too clear. I despise my own pain, but I doubt despise it as much as the pain others are going through. At times I wish I could stop what I was doing in order to help others but then doubts fill my mind. Sometimes I think that what I am doing now will enable me to better help others in the future. At other times I think that I am just procrastinating helping others. Once again and in many more areas of my life, I am left with only doubt.